One Hundred Ten Years Old Today…

by Emily Gibson

Send your memories and stories of Wiser Lake Chapel to emilypgibson@gmail.com if you would like them included here.

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The Old Church leans nearby a well worn road 
upon a hill that has no grass or tree 
The winds from off the prairie now unload 
the dust they bring around it fitfully 
The path that leads up to the open door 
is worn and grayed by many toiling feet 
of us who listen to the Bible lore 
and once again the old time hymns repeat.
And every Sabbath Morning we are still 
returning to the altar standing there; 
a hush, a prayer, a pause, and voices 
fill the Master’s House with a triumphant air.
The old church leans awry and looks quite odd,
But it is beautiful to us, and God.

~Della Vik “The Old Church”

(adapted in song by Stephen Paulus, linked below

photo by Barb Hoelle

…when I experienced the warm, unpretentious reception of those who have nothing to boast about, and experienced a loving embrace from people who didn’t ask any questions, I began to discover that a true spiritual homecoming means a return to the poor in spirit to whom the kingdom of heaven belongs.
~Henri Nouwen from The Return of the Prodigal Son

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Today is the 110th anniversary of Wiser Lake Chapel‘s building dedication ceremony and picnic.

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Back in the early days of Whatcom County,  the little church on Wiser Lake had been constructed through “contributions of the people” in a rural neighborhood only a few miles from where we now live.  $600 in lumber was provided by a local farmer whose trees were cut and milled and brought by horse drawn wagon to a building site adjacent to a one room school house along a corrugated plank road. The total property was “valued at $1800, but of even more value to the community.” 

The dedication ceremony was held on Sunday, August 27, 1916 followed by “a basket dinner—come with well filled baskets for a common table, under the direction of the Ladies Aid”. This was to be followed by a “Fellowship Meeting, special music and fraternal addresses” and the day ended at 8 PM with a Young People’s Meeting.

So began the long history of the “Wiser Lake Church”.

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For reasons unrecorded in the history of the church, the original denomination closed the doors thirty years later, and for a while the building was empty and in need of a congregation. 

By the fifties, it became a mission church of the local Christian Reformed Churches and launched a Sunday School program for migrant farm and Native American children in the surrounding rural neighborhood. No formal church services started until the 60s. By the time the building was sixty years old, so many children were arriving for Sunday School, there was not enough room so the building was hoisted up on jacks to allow a hole to be dug underneath for a basement full of classrooms. Over the course of a summer, the floor space doubled, and the church settled back into place, allowed to rest again on its foundation.

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Over seventy years after its dedication ceremony, our family drove past the boxy building countless times hurrying on our way to other places, barely giving it a second glance. It had a classic design, but showed its age with peeling paint,  a few missing shingles, an old fashioned square flat roofed belfry, and arched windows. The hand lettered sign spelling out “Wiser Lake Chapel” by the road constituted a humble invitation of sorts, simply by listing the time of the service.

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photo by Julie Garrett
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On a blustery December Sunday evening, we had no place else to be for a change.  Instead of driving past, we stopped, welcomed by the yellow glow pouring from the windows and an almost full parking lot. Our young family climbed the steps to the big double doors, and inside were immediately greeted by Pete Meyer, a man with a huge grin and encompassing handshake. He pointed us to one of the few open spots still available in the old wooden pews.

The sanctuary was a warm and open space with a high lofted ceiling, dark wood trim accents matching the ancient pews, and a plain wooden cross above the pulpit in front. There was a pungent smell from fir bough garlands strung along high wainscoting, and a circle of candles standing lit on a small altar table. Apple pie was baking in the kitchen oven, blending with the aroma of good coffee and hot cocoa.

The service was a Sunday School Christmas program, with thirty some children of all ages and skin colors standing up front in bathrobes and white sheet angel gowns, wearing gold foil halos, tinfoil crowns and dish towels wrapped with string around their heads. They were prompted by their teachers through carols and readings of the Christmas story. The final song was Silent Night, sung by candle light, with each child and member of the congregation holding a lit candle. There was a moment of excitement when one girl’s long hair briefly caught fire, but after that was extinguished by a quick-thinking mom in the pastor’s pulpit glass of water, the evening ended in darkness, with the soft glow of candlelight illuminating faces of the young and old, some in tears streaming over their smiles.

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It felt like home. We had found our church.

We’ve never left, now well into our fourth decade here.

Over the past one hundred years this old building has seen a few thousand people come and go, has had peeling paint and missing shingles, a basement that floods when the rain comes down hard, toilets that don’t always flush very well, and though it smells heavenly every Sunday potluck after evening worship and teaching, there are times when it can be just a bit out of sorts and musty. It really isn’t anything to boast about.

It is humble and unpretentious yet envelops its people in its loving and imperfect embrace, with warmth, character and a uniqueness that is unforgettable.

It really is not so different from the folks who have gathered there over the years.

Like our pastors over the decades – Bruce Hemple, Stephen Tamminga, Albert Hitchcock and now Nathan Chambers – our chapel is humble and unpretentious, enveloping its people in a loving embrace of God’s Word, with warmth, character, grace and a uniqueness that is unforgettable.

We know we belong,
such as we are,
just as we are,
blessed by God in a wonderful old building to join together.

Perhaps you belong at this old church too…

Wiser Lake Chapel Bus – in retirement
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Easter 2026: He is Risen

by Emily Gibson (from 2019)

“Let Him easter in us, be a dayspring to the dimness of us, be a crimson-cresseted east.”
― Gerard Manley Hopkins

The bright light of Easter morning can tend to dim over time as we return our daily routines, which these days are anything but “routine.” In mere days, we may allow humdrum to replace the extraordinary, tragedy to overcome celebration, darkness once again overwhelming dawn. The world and our pandemic situation will encourage this, and it is up to us to offer up resistance. Otherwise, we climb right back into the tomb of our sin, move the huge stone back in place, and lie there waiting for rot to settle in.

I am not alone in this. I have plenty of company with me behind the stone. And there is no excuse for us to be there still.

The stone is pushed aside, the burden shouldered, the debt completely paid.

So we can’t allow the light to dim.

He is risen. We are eastered.

Even in these extraordinary times, we need to live our lives illuminated by that truth.

photo by Joel De Waard of 2019 Easter Sunrise Service at BriarCroft

Lent 2026: Holy Saturday

by Ben Gibson (from 2019)

“Now there was a man named Joseph, a member of the Council, a good and upright man, who had not consented to the decision and action. He came from the Judean town of Arimathea and was waiting for the kingdom of God. Going to Pilate, he asked for Jesus body. Then he took it down, wrapped it in linen cloth and placed it in a tomb cut in the rock, one in which no one had yet been laid. It was Preparation Day, and the Sabbath was about to begin.”
– Luke 23:50-54

Do not pass Holy Saturday without a second thought.

What did Mary and the disciples feel when Jesus was on the cross? What did Joseph of Arimathea feel as he peeled the bloodied and lifeless corpse down from the tree? It could not have been deep feelings of gratitude. They were not sitting around thinking: ‘Golly, I sure feel justified now. I’m so glad Jesus just took care of my sins and such.’

Instead there was a deep and real despair, along with a re-entering into the daily routine. Joseph knew the Sabbath was about to start and he had to get Jesus down and placed in the tomb before it did or else he would be ceremonially unclean. Had he or the disciples known what was going to happen, the Resurrection on the third day would not have been nearly as glorious.

Lament and complaint to God is a needed and natural response. To simply say it will all get better is to ignore the reality of sin and pain that we know from experience are the realities we face on a daily basis.

So do not pass Holy Saturday without a second thought.

Take time to mourn. Take time to lament. Give yourself the time and space to sit in discomfort. The disciples took time to be in that space. Christ himself took time to dwell in that space. The pain and sin we face are real. Take time to let that sink in before the coming morn establishes a new reality.

Good Friday 2026: From Creche to Cross

The whole of Christ’s life was a continual passion;
others die martyrs, but Christ was born a martyr.

He found a Golgotha, where he was crucified, even in Bethlehem, where he was born;
for to his tenderness then the straws were almost as sharp as the thorns after,
and the manger as uneasy at first as the cross at last.

His birth and his death were but one continual act,
and his Christmas Day and his Good Friday are
but the evening and the morning of one and the same day.
From the creche to the cross is an inseparable line.

Christmas only points forward to Good Friday and Easter.
It can have no meaning apart from that, where the Son of God displayed his glory by his death.
~opening words by John Donne in his sermon on Christmas Day 1626

I could never myself believe in God, if it were not for the cross.
The only God I believe in is the one Nietzsche ridiculed as “God on the Cross.”
In the real world of pain, how could one worship a God who was immune to it?
I have entered many Buddhist temples and stood respectfully before the statue of Buddha,
his legs crossed, arms folded, eyes closed, the ghost of a smile playing round his mouth, a remote look on his face, detached from the agonies of the world.

But each time after a while I have had to turn away.

And in imagination I have turned instead to that lonely, twisted, tortured figure on the cross, nails through hands and feet, back lacerated, limbs wrenched, brow bleeding from thorn-pricks, mouth dry and intolerably thirsty, plunged in Godforsaken darkness.

That is the God for me!

He laid aside his immunity to pain.
He entered our world of flesh and blood, tears and death.
He suffered for us.
~John Stott from The Cross of Christ

Maundy Thursday 2026: Foot Washing

by Emily Gibson

sculpture by Max Greiner

Being thorough, I remove a holey sock
to view a diabetic man’s filthy feet.
I use the time to complete our talk
of what drove him to live on the street
as I wonder how any of this can help.

While he tells me more of his medical past,
I run warm water into a stainless bowl.
I immerse both his feet and begin to ask
myself what good it does for this poor soul
to allow himself to undergo this ablution.

Silently I sluice the water between his toes
and soap the crusty callous at his heel.
I marvel at his arch and notice how closely
it fits my palm. I know he can feel
this proximity too. He shuts his eyes.

Months of useless layers peel away,
revealing layers useless weeks ago.
Removing the tough brown hide of yesterday
yields clean pink skin, but we both know
this ritual will be useless days from now.

Still, this moment may withstand time’s test,
teaching us each lessons unknown before.
I learn the medicine of selflessness.
He learns what medicine is really for–
the hope that basin, soap and touch can bear.
~Robert Fawcett “Washing Feet”

Jesus washing the feet of his disciples by Finnish artist Albert Gustaf Edelfelt

What e’er the soul has felt or suffered long,
Oh, heart! this one thing should not be forgot:
Christ washed the feet of Judas.
~George Marion McClellan
from “The Feet of Judas” in The Book of American Negro Poetry 1922

Ford Maddox Brown — Washing Peter’s Feet

As an aide in a rest home caring for the crippled feet of the elderly,
as a medical student in an inner city hospital seeing the homeless whose socks had to be peeled off carefully to avoid pulling off gangrenous toes, as a doctor working with the down and out detox patients from the streets who had no access to soap and water for weeks,

I’ve washed feet as part of my job.

People always protest,
just as Peter did when Jesus started to wash his feet.
We never believe our feet,
those homely gnarled bunioned claw-toed calloused parts of us,
deserve that attention, and certainly not love.

We are ashamed to have someone care about them, care for them, when we don’t care enough on our own.

I have never washed the feet of someone about to betray me,
leading me to my death.

I have never had my feet washed by someone
who understood my heart needed cleansing even more than my feet, who loved me that much.

Until now.

This one thing should not be forgot:
Kneeling, He wears the humility and towels of a servant as His only raiments. He gently cups our heels in His palms, washes and dries our soles and arches and toes, but our hearts are held, still beating, in His loving hands.

Maundy Thursday 2026 – Come to Jesus

by Noa Lovegren (from 2023)

I wrote this poem a little over a year ago, as I watched my grandmother slowly die. I had never seen death this close. The fear and agony of it all was much more shocking than I had ever experienced. The fierce battle that seemed to be raging behind her closed eyes and slow breaths left a deep impression on me.

Death itself is a battle and one that requires immense effort and strength. It is the ultimate refiner’s fire. However, the best news is that this fire is refining. We do not burn into nothingness, but are only renewed, until one day, raised to a glorious new reality, we are made new permanently.

“We shall not all sleep but we shall all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at
the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised, imperishable, and we shall
be changed…O death where is your sting?” (I Cor 15:52ff)

I’m going to see my Savior
He’ll never leave my side
‘Midst danger, grief, and toil
In Him will I abide.

Fighting, fighting, fighting,
Facing every foe.
Walking, walking, walking ,
Till He calls me Home.


My Shepherd calls me homeward
Tho’ Death Valley is so grim
My purpose never alters
I labor unto Him.

Fighting, fighting, fighting,
Facing every foe.
Walking, walking, walking,
Till He calls me Home.


I’ve reached the Jordan River
I see the Kingdom’s shore,
It’s just beyond those breakers,
Then death shall be no more.

Fighting, fighting, fighting,
Facing every foe,
Walking, walking, walking,
Till He calls me Home.


I’ve gone to see my Savior
I’m clothed in robes pure white
His righteousness, my crown,
His service, my delight.

Praising, praising, praising,
He vanquished every foe
Resting, resting, resting,
He has brought me Home.

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Lent 2026: Chosen One

by Nick Wonder (from 2019)

And the people stood by, watching, but the rulers scoffed at him, saying, “He saved others; let him save himself, if he is the Christ of God, his Chosen One!”   Luke 23:35, ESV.

This taunt shows that God’s Chosen One is God’s Messiah, such that any Biblical teaching on the latter is relevant to appreciating the former.  Nevertheless, “chosen” is interesting in its own right.  The Greek is eklektos, which the ESV gives as “elect” in a majority of 24 New Testament appearances and which blends with a word for “call” to form ekklesia—the assembly or church.   

My thoughts turn first, then, to God’s chosen people.   The Lord bestows spiritual treasure, earthly suffering included, and eternal life on his church and even extends a measure of temporal blessings to those connected to the regenerate (e.g., an unbelieving husband is sanctified by a believing wife according to 1 Co 7:14, and though not all are Israel who are descended from Israel, many dwelt in the promised land).God is not fickle in choosing us.  “I have loved you [his people] with an everlasting love” (Jer 31:3)  established “before the foundation of the world” (Eph 1:4).  The love is exclusive. “You only have I known of all the families of the earth” (Amos 3:2).  But God chose a people holy to Himself “not because you were more in number than any other people” (Deut 7:7); in fact, Jerusalem was the offspring of an Amorite and a Hittite, lying unwashed when God said, “Live!” (Ezek 16).  Even if God saw David’s heart in choosing him as king (1 Sa 16:7), he seemingly must have seen in that heart (as pointed out by Adam Brown, beholdingtheglory.org)  the righteousness of Christ accounted to David by grace.

Christ, too, is chosen from eternity (1 Pe 1:20).  God the Father appointed him for missions including preaching repentance and proclaiming God’s kingdom, healing the sick, fulfilling the law, dying for our sins, interceding for us, and reigning at the Father’s right hand.  Whereas as we are chosen in spite of our thoroughly sinful disposition, Jesus is perfect, the Chosen One by essence.  He is in very nature God, and God the Father sent him to perfectly carry out his will.  Jesus assented; “I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me.” (Jn 6:38)  The Father is ever well pleased with the Son’s execution of his calling, describing him as “my chosen, in whom my soul delights (Is 42:1, also see Jn 8:29).  As the Son submitted to the Father and humbled himself in taking on flesh, that a remnant and even creation might be redeemed, so the Father decrees from eternity, “Today I have begotten you.  Ask of me, and I will make the nations your heritage, and the ends of the earth your possession” (Ps 2:7-8 and Heb 5:5).  His chosen is the firstborn, whose horn is exalted above all kings of the earth.  (Ps 89). The Father even “swore and will not change his mind, ‘You are a priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek’” (Heb 7:21).  And Jesus would receive the promise of the Holy Spirit to pour out on his sheep (Acts 2:33).  The Father loves the Son, and he gives Him authority to judge, “that all may honor the Son, just as they honor the Father.”  While the Father is ever at his work, there was a point in history at which Jesus could assert that “the hour has come; Glorify your Son, that your Son may glorify you.” And, therefore, “today is the day of salvation.”     Even as he was sweating blood with the weight of God’s impending wrath and distance, Jesus could be fully confident in God’s unchanging reliability and His power to carry out these and other promises for the One He chose and the ones chosen through Him.  We should rejoice that God has determined to unite us with his spotless Chosen One; whether the world loves or hates us is secondary.     

Note:  sources for some of the verses in the last paragraph are works on the covenant of redemption by Scott Swain and by Ligonier.

For ever shall my song record

Isaac Watts

For ever shall my song record
The truth and mercy of the Lord;
Mercy and truth for ever stand,
Like heav’n, established by his hand.

Thus to his Son he sware, and said,
“With thee my cov’nant first is made;
In thee shall dying sinners live,
Glory and grace are thine to give.

“Be thou my Prophet, thou my Priest;
Thy children shall be ever blest;
Thou art my chosen King: thy throne
Shall stand eternal like my own.

“There’s none of all my sons above
So much my image or my love;
Celestial powers thy subjects are:
Then what can earth to thee compare?

“David, my servant, whom I chose
To guard my flock, to crush my foes,
And raised him to the Jewish throne,
Was but a shadow of my Son.”

Now let the church rejoice and sing
Jesus, her Savior and her King;
Angels his heav’nly wonders show,
And saints declare his works below.

When They Heard That Jesus Was Coming (verses 1-3 of 10)

Rory Cooney

When they heard that Jesus was coming,

Sing hosanna to the chosen one!

All the people went out to meet him.

Sing hosanna to the chosen one!

Spread their cloaks and branches before him,

Sing hosanna to the chosen one!

Children sang with palm branches waving,

Sing hosanna to the chosen one!

Blest is he, like David before him.

Sing hosanna to the chosen one!

Blest is he, God’s blessing upon him.

Sing hosanna to the chosen one!

Lent 2026: The High Priest

by Pastor Bert Hitchcock (from 2017)

In most religions, including parts of Christianity, there are individuals who are separated from the common people and considered the holy ones; they are often called “priests”. Supposedly, these priests stand between common people and God; representing God to the people and representing the people to God. But these human priests have two, limiting weaknesses.

First, they are often, even from childhood, set apart from the kind of life everyone else lives. They probably never do the same kinds of work; they may by shielded from life’s troubles; and they probably receive very different education. So, when common people encounter problems – when they cry out for help that only God could give – it may never occur to them to seek out a priest. They may think, “The priest doesn’t know anything about the real world – he has no experience with the problems I’m facing!”

Second, in spite of the aura of holiness surrounding priests, the truth is, they have their own sin to deal with. The outward trappings of religion, can hide terrible trouble inside – weaknesses which actually alienate them from God, more than common people are alienated. And so, whatever ritual help they may have to offer, it is powerless to actually minister grace and healing to needy souls.

But Jesus is a different kind of High Priest! He does not have those two common weaknesses! When he lived in our world, he walked in our shoes. As a boy growing up in a carpenter shop, he undoubtedly smashed his fingers, splintered his hands, and experienced the weariness of labor that everyone else knows. Then as an adult, seeking to serve his Heavenly Father, he faced betrayal, rejection, hatred, persecution, and even the pain of death, like no one before or since.

But through it all, this Jesus – tempted as he was, like everyone else – never sinned against the Father – never broke God’s laws. So, while he suffered outwardly, he was not alienated from the Father by his own sin.

That alienation from the Father would come only on the cross, where he willingly took upon himself our guilt and paid our penalty, in order to make atonement for us and reconcile us to His Father. And after his death, the Father raised him from the dead, proving that his sacrifice was sufficient – that God was pleased.

So now that Jesus is ascended to the Father’s right hand, we have a Great High Priest unlike any earthly priest ever! For Jesus the High Priest does not have the common weaknesses of all other priests: He is not distant from us for he actually walked in our shoes. But since he does not have his own sin to deal with; he is able to rescue us from our guilt and despair. And so he prays to the Father for us; he sends his Spirit work in us; and he invites us to come to him and find help.

That is the wonderful promise of Hebrews 4:

“We have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God . . . We do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are – yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”

Charles Wesley set forth that wonderful truth of Jesus’ high priestly work and the bold faith it should give us, in the hymn Arise, My Soul Arise.

Arise, my soul, arise,
shake off thy guilty fears;

The bleeding Sacrifice
in my behalf appears:

Before the throne my Surety stands; before the throne my Surety stands.

My name is written on his hands.

He ever lives above,
for me to intercede,

His all redeeming love,
His precious blood to plead;

His blood atoned for all our race,
His blood atoned for all our race,

And sprinkles now the throne of grace.

Five bleeding wounds he bears, received on Calvary;

They pour effectual prayers, they strongly plead for me.

“Forgive him, O forgive,” they cry, “forgive him, O forgive,” they cry,

“Nor let that ransomed sinner die!”

My God is reconciled;
His pardoning voice I hear:

He owns me for his child I can no longer fear;

With confidence I now draw nigh, With confidence I now draw nigh,

And “Father, Abba, Father,” cry.

Lent 2026: Those Who Trust

by Nick Laninga (from 2020)

We are pulled up short not by the truth of that fact but rather by how slow we were to learn this truth. It had been fourteen years since I started my career in the grocery business. Having advanced through the different phases of store management I progressed to assistant store manager. At age 31, I was on the way so to speak.

The Everett District manager called me in and said he wanted to advance my training in a larger store which meant a transfer to Oak Harbor. This was a great opportunity to advance, however it meant leaving all the comfort and familiarity of Lynden. It also meant working on Sundays. {In the 1970’s everything was closed in Lynden on Sundays] We agreed to the transfer and rented out our home in Lynden and moved.

We found a great church and church family and soon had many friends and strong Christian support however something was lacking. After several months I felt a real void in not being able to worship on Sundays with my family so I asked the store manager if I could have off one Sunday a month and he said “no problem we can work that out.”

The next week the district manager came in and said “I understand that you don’t want to work Sundays anymore.” I said that was not true and I explained my reason. He said “well I have been watching you for quite some time and you are not cut out to be a manager. So I am relieving you of your position, you can go back to Lynden. Oh I want you to know that this Sunday issue has nothing to do with it.”

Confused and angry we went back to Lynden where I was put on the night stocking crew a difficult demotion to say the least, after all we were trying to live lives that were pleasing to God and now look what happened.

The family that rented our home wanted to buy it so we rented ourselves for a time. I wanted to build a new home in Meadow Green but Diana wanted to wait. What to do? Being on the night crew I worked every day from 9P.M-6A.M. the next day. One week however my shift changed to work Saturday from 3P.M. to Midnight. That night Jude Vander Hoek came in to shop and said “Nick we want to sell our house are you interested?”  When I came home I told Diana who said “you did say yes, right?” So Monday we agreed to the purchase of the home that we still live in. 44 years now. This was the house that as a young girl Diana had always dreamed of.

There is more. Within the year not only did we receive a house but God provided a grocery store for us to operate in downtown Lynden that became our family business for almost 15 years. There are many details of how God led us which I have left out.

The point that we like to leave you with is we were so slow to trust God, we were angry & so slow to learn.

Recently I read the book “Into the Arena” by Isobel Kuhn who was a China Inland Missionary to the Lisu Tribe In Yunnan China in the Salween river Valley. She went through the Japanese occupation [think the Burma road 1940’s.]  She goes on to say and this is what we would like to leave you with. She rightfully called the trials and hardships they endured “PLATFORMS” from which God works and shows Himself. {Why are we so slow to learn and continue as we so often do?]  As Isobel goes on to say “How wonderful to find Him always there when we have unexpected need of Him. It is humbling to find Him waiting there!”    

And so it was for us. A lesson that continually repeats.

Palm Sunday 2026: If I Had Been There

by Craig Johnson (from 2023)

Palm Sunday 2016

The liturgy called me out.

“Crucify Him!”

I squirmed.

It was the Jewish leaders and their followers who yelled it. They hated him, his claims of deity and his
challenge to their formulae. They did it – according to God’s plan, provoked when Jesus’ sharpened
rebukes cut into their assumptions, power, and hopes.

Then why did the liturgy stop me? I could recite it as a historical reference to their betrayal. But that
was not enough this year. I didn’t want to believe I could have stood with them or joined the throng of
hate – or supported any of it. I do not wish I had been there – and find comfort that centuries stand
between them and me.

I didn’t do it – they did.

Why, then, did the liturgy stop me? A suspicion gnawed on me. Maybe, had I been there, I would have
stood among that crowd; with my desire for companionship and comfort inducing me to support it – or
just to avoid His motley band of disciples.

I didn’t do it – they did – but I could have.

Why did the liturgy stop me? Perhaps I wasn’t ready to admit that I have already said it, even shouted it,
with all of the muddled vindictiveness of those urging Pilate. Perhaps this is my only response – to yell,
“Crucify Him!” I did it.

Otherwise, how may I call Him my Savior and Lord?

The liturgy called me out.